New Years Resolutions (and some other stuff)

I never hold onto any of them. Halfhearted or not, they fall by the wayside.
So perhaps my resolution this year is to stop that silly tradition. No more resolutions from 2010, on.
I tell myself this or that plan will work, but truth be told, I don't know that I really want to go back to school, and I may dream of it often, but I don't think I want a job either. I'm lazy, I guess.
My only long term plan that has been "on track" is my wish to get pregnant.

I've wanted to lose weight. I wanted to become a massage therapist. I wanted to work at Jewel. I want to become an esthetician. I want to have a supplementary income.
I want... I hate wanting things. As soon as one want is resolved, another springs up in its place. I should rephrase, I don't hate it. I don't hate alot of things. I dislike things. I dream of being rid of 'want'. And simultaneously, I'm endlessly amused by it.

Been listening to music tracks that have no names, for they are anon created .swf files and youtube videos, user uploaded with incorrect or absent titles.
Beautiful music, melodies sans lyrics, that I've tracked down rather than go to sleep. Listening to a song that sounds like Benn Jordan's I Am The Unbreakable Shard Of Glass mixed with Autumn Insomnia Session. It's a .swf file titled NRGH-NOTEXT and it's absolutely beautiful. It's melancholic. I love it.