Upset

FUCK!
OK, just need to get that out. I've been trying to get healthier, make the baby making plan closer to a reality by laying off the caffeine. It's really the only addictive thing I go after, no cigs or alcohol fortunately. I thought that I was being good, no caffeine for a month, I know that a small time frame, but you gotta start somewhere right? Anyway, that is not the case. I let myself think that because Sunkist isn't brown, that it would then lack caffeine. Spite's not brown & no caffeine. This was my logic. I was doing research on the web regarding caffeinated edibles and caffeine's possible role in miscarriages. Sunkist is in fact about as caffeinated as the drinks I've been abstaining from. Sunkist is more like Mountain Dew, in that neither are brown and quite caffeinated. Damn! But anyway, I've learned from this and will check product labels from here on out.
So yeah, I goofed. But I'm rather fortunate, that I've caught it so early. I had Sunkist for 3 of the last 4 weeks of my "month". Oh well back to square one. And that's the "Upset" part, I'm not mad at myself and not overly stressed out, just upset that I've been on caffeine most of the time and didn't pay attention to the symptoms. Though part of the reason I didn't notice was likely due to being exhausted often while I was away at Royal Horse Ranch.